Language Journal: August 25th 2019
So, I'm trying something new. I'm going to try writing these journals with the same sort of approach I devised for (and subsequently haven't used nearly often enough) for writing other articles. Wherein I try and form a layout of topics and a flow for the journal/article ahead of time to try and keep things a bit more cohesive.
First up, a bit of a recap. I think my plan with Anki is working. Tending more towards the optimistic side of things does seem to be pushing the results out. My daily average is getting close to just 200 cards total (new + reviews). That being said... I haven't really reaped what I've sown yet. If it works, things will remain consistent or even go down further. If not, I'll run up against these cards I've been pushing out and they'll all just fall back in my face later. But, I think it is a self balancing thing to a degree. By pushing them out, I lessen my daily load, which should also help with retention.
Regardless, have the volume of cards decrease is turning out to be good in timing. I've been losing motivation a bit lately. Life is getting in the way, and keeping my busy with legitimately more important things. And, with the time that is left, I'm just not feeling as motivated to use it properly to advance my Japanese.
In short, it is all on me. It isn't that the time isn't there. And, it isn't even that I'm not making the use of it. I've just hit a few days where I feel it is more of a struggle to commit myself. And, the additional pressures just make it easier to justify the near misses.
So, I haven't yet slipped completely. I'm still at 100% of my days doing my flashcards. But, this is the first week in which I didn't complete a volume of manga. There may be some mental block there. I do know that when I reach the end of this manga, I should be placing my next order. But, it will be the first step into the unknown. Ordering more Japanese materials knowing that there will be no BoM shipment to fall back on. Meaning, if I choose poorly either because I pick something way to advanced, or if I've over estimated my skills, it could kill my motivation further.
And, I think part of this is ingrained in my own decision to not actively participate in communities where I speak or write in Japanese in front of others. I'm feeling not like I could be further along, that is a given. But, rather that I'm not even as far along as I should be given the effort I've put in.
I know I need to stick with it. And I think writing this out, and accepting this is really going to help in getting me to continue going forward.
I want to say more, but I didn't include anything else in my outline :) and this post feels really cohesive. So, I think I will keep this up (leaving out the bit where I talk about the process).
First up, a bit of a recap. I think my plan with Anki is working. Tending more towards the optimistic side of things does seem to be pushing the results out. My daily average is getting close to just 200 cards total (new + reviews). That being said... I haven't really reaped what I've sown yet. If it works, things will remain consistent or even go down further. If not, I'll run up against these cards I've been pushing out and they'll all just fall back in my face later. But, I think it is a self balancing thing to a degree. By pushing them out, I lessen my daily load, which should also help with retention.
Regardless, have the volume of cards decrease is turning out to be good in timing. I've been losing motivation a bit lately. Life is getting in the way, and keeping my busy with legitimately more important things. And, with the time that is left, I'm just not feeling as motivated to use it properly to advance my Japanese.
In short, it is all on me. It isn't that the time isn't there. And, it isn't even that I'm not making the use of it. I've just hit a few days where I feel it is more of a struggle to commit myself. And, the additional pressures just make it easier to justify the near misses.
So, I haven't yet slipped completely. I'm still at 100% of my days doing my flashcards. But, this is the first week in which I didn't complete a volume of manga. There may be some mental block there. I do know that when I reach the end of this manga, I should be placing my next order. But, it will be the first step into the unknown. Ordering more Japanese materials knowing that there will be no BoM shipment to fall back on. Meaning, if I choose poorly either because I pick something way to advanced, or if I've over estimated my skills, it could kill my motivation further.
And, I think part of this is ingrained in my own decision to not actively participate in communities where I speak or write in Japanese in front of others. I'm feeling not like I could be further along, that is a given. But, rather that I'm not even as far along as I should be given the effort I've put in.
I know I need to stick with it. And I think writing this out, and accepting this is really going to help in getting me to continue going forward.
I want to say more, but I didn't include anything else in my outline :) and this post feels really cohesive. So, I think I will keep this up (leaving out the bit where I talk about the process).
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